OK now let’s be a man about it: this blog will never be profitable. Even my sister and my aunt refuse to donate to the blog. Sometimes I wonder why and sometimes I know why: secure payments.

I’ve paid 50$ a company called “Grow Traffic” to send traffic to my blog. And they did deliver. But it feels like bot traffic and it’s bad news for me: they made 50$ and I won’t make a penny.

I’m not new in the business but I’m new to blogging. I thought people would enjoy the thoughts of a musician with a good culture and an experienced man. I must say maybe the experienced man is not showing up: only the good musician is here.

That’s why I decided to stop blogging as of today. Unless someone can bring back some life to this blog (a marketing expert maybe), I know I’m writing and I will have nothing in return.

This decision to stop blogging is hard and I’m going to go deeper in the details (or maybe underground). There’s too much panic in this town!

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Reason #1: I Wish I Could Still Make Love.

It’s true blogging is a conversation. I don’t get a lot of comments on the blog or Facebook. I get mostly likes. Maybe what I’m writing is difficult to digest. Maybe people don’t need another hero who will show them the new frontier.

This blog is about music but also astronomy because I want to find a way to make space affordable. When I think about space, I also think about love. I’ve loved once a long time ago. I’m talking about physical love. Not the kind of love you can have for a celebrity or a high-school friend.

Sometimes I like to think this world is too physical and it’s a dead end. They only talk about chemistry in team sports and mathematics bores all of us.

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Reason #2: I Can’t Find One Partner To Help Me.

It’s true I’m doing everything alone: coding, marketing, creativity, legal, finance and so on and so forth. I need a partner just to proofread me or bounce ideas. I’d like to find a way to make space affordable and I’m using music to feed my head. But a memory from my lonesome past in 1997 makes me write awful things sometimes.

I’ve been to hell and the way back is delicate. Like a character from Greek Antiquity, I didn’t stay an angel on the way home. But now there is a serious issue that’s prompting me to stop blogging: an ambition that’s hard to understand.

I don’t want to change society or the world: I want to make space affordable. And the only way to do so is to stop fooling around.

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Reason #3: I’m Surrounded In A Sea Of Thieves.

It’s always strange to find on another blog a picture you chose on your blog. That’s because I’m using free stock images. Although they are good looking, I can’t imagine not finding 2 people interested in designing images to illustrate the posts.

I do think there must be an exchange between the writers of the blog and the readers. Like the Huffington Post, I decided to have a musical approach on life. But maybe I could do better and trust my readers.

My stomach feels strange and there’s a song in my head I can’t get out of: like a beautiful body or a wonderful lover. The toxic artwork of Nazi Germany sponsored by Asia is now close to making me history.

What will I do when you will come for me? So many bad boys are just bad motha fucka.

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This Is How I Feel When I’m Driving.

The only way I could envision to continue blogging is to trust my readers. And in order to trust them they have to show me some love: on Facebook or email, with comments or by sending money (donations, subscription, products etc…). Now I’m trusting readers and they are sending me a wonderful sign: they won’t give me 10 cents.

I’ve been blogging for almost 2 years and even advertising is not working properly. I don’t know if I have bot traffic. Now I understand what’s the problem: security. I’m using Stripe for payments and it’s a trusted startup.

Sadly there ain’t nothing here for free. It’s hard to make a living but it’s much easier to understand when you know there’s nothing here for free.

Let’s listen to good music like jazz, blues, soul, rock, funk and electro. And let’s find a way to make space and love affordable! Thank you.

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Nicolas Sursock

Written by Nicolas Sursock

Nicolas is a musician. His work now focuses on digesting 10000 songs of jazz, blues, soul, rock, funk and electronic. He plays the guitar if he's not blogging.